January 2009
50 posts
Funny!
Edina: much speed??
Sendi: shiiiiiit son! you drive like me! Haha
i'm finally up-to-date with my technology :)
a while ago,
i saw a really good bumper sticker..it said, “war does not decide who’s right but who’s left”
which is totally true! i thought it was pretty clever.
“YOU ARE MY SHOOTING STAR,
THAT’S WHY YOU ARE MY FAVORITE.
—DAVID...”
so i was thinking..
i was walking through the mall today and i noticed how EMPTY it is, no one goes to the mall anymore. its kinda sad, and scary.
i got to thinking bout why its like that.. its cause of our economy.. i knew that before but i didnt REALLY think about it untill today.. and now im kinda bummed because what happens when no one can afford anything they need… what if we go into another depressed;...
im getting
a new freakin car. fuck this, everyone has a mazda. its annoying.
haha :)
your mmmmmmmm :)
translation:
guys say one thing but mean another, haha..
“i’m pretty much single” — “i have a gf, but your hot” “I dont play games” — “im a master at game playing, but i dont want you to play them.” “i’ll call you later” — “i may or may not call you at some point between now and 3 months from now.”...
im having
a good week! and im actually liking school, my professors are awesome; and the classes arent too hard. i got a great boy and an awesome best friend.
im likin this!! :)
i love
good nights :)
oh how i love
when he lowers down to begging. its amazing, and it makes me feel super satisfied. because.. he can
FUCK himself. :)
about 6 texts, 4/5 ignored calls, and 2 voicemails.
ahhh this is good, mean, but good.
my room
looks 100x better.
i rearranged it!
i opened it up so much,
ohh im excited!
:)
i wish,
i had magic powers!
it would make my life sooo much easier.
ive realized,
i want what i cant have. and when i get something good, i run away from it.
grehota, grehota
today, after work, i walked back to my car and next to it someone spilled french fries AND someone stepped on some of them.
how rude.
im
superrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr happpppppyyy!!
:)
i hate this
ahhhh!
damn it.
like i said,
posing half naked on myspace wont get you anywhere; and you most definitely will not get any respect, you might get some attention for a bit, but its not always good attention.
how sad.
i gotta get me
that book of lines all these boys use,
cause shit, some of them are pretty smooth.
i should give it a try hhahahaha.
let me just tell you
since none of you seem to know, my name is SENDI.
i love
working out :)
can i just ask
why the fuck every little girl wears like 80 pounds of make up.. and as if thats not bad enough, why the hell do they put foundation on their lips, Foundation is made to go on your face.. your skin, not your lips.. thats where you put lip gloss, chapstick, lipstick.. not foundation.
FUCK. you look like freakin ghosts.
just a thought,
i wonder what kind of first impression i make on people. because i cant ever seem to impress myself..
i feel like i never do anything right, or good enough. i always disappoint myself and im not sure why; i do exactly what i say i wont and act the exact way i promise myself i wont. sometimes i wonder if its maybe just me.. maybe i have to have more confidence in myself believe in myself more...
im just wondering;
whatever happened to dancing?! everyone always drinks and smokes, what the hell.
i mean it
“i’m not mad, if anything i’m mad at myself for not doing anything about your bullshit before. im done just sitting here and hoping your gonna change and come back to me and be a good boyfriend. i’m not gonna waste my time anymore. i dont need someone like you in my life.”
whew, it felt good to say that. and now im gonna say this, good bye.
ewww
i dont like being sick, yuck.
dont..
waltz back in like you can. because you cant, our outta my life for good.
fuck you and your bullshit.
a walk down memory lane
i love looking thru pictures, old pictures, its wonderful and amazing to see how much everyone has changed, including me. hmmm :)
i wonder
SOMETIMES I WONDER WHAT MY LIFE WOULD BE LIKE IF I NEVER MET THE PEOPLE IVE MET SO FAR, AND IF I DIDNT LIVE WHERE I LIVE. WHAT IF I NEVER FINISHED SCHOOL? OR GONE TO COLLEGE.. WHAT IF I NEVER GOT RID OF THOSE WHO DIDNT REALLY CARE FOR ME..
WHAT IF I MOVED TO AUSTRALIA LIKE MY PARENTS WANT TO.. MAYBE I NEED TO DO THAT..
WOULD MY LIFE BE BETTER..OR WORSE..?
i need;
to go to bosnia.
and im gonna go, this may.
i dont understand,
why when you care for someone, they turn it into something else.. they make it seem almost as if you dont care, as if you want only bad things to happen to them.
i dont think like that. i would never want anything horrible to happen to any of the people i care for, and sometimes they make it seem like that. i do what i do because i care.. not because i dont. if i didnt care id let you do whatever...
“swallow my words, taste my thoughts
and if its too nasty, spit it back at...”
its just the truth, mang.
If the person who hurt you most apologized and said they loved you what would you do?
id be like “nahh you just wana get in my pants.i dont even know if you know how to love cause all you care about is your goddamn self.” i have a way with words.
dont doubt me.
EVER.
if theres one thing i hate its being doubted, or not trusted. i hate that my parents are like that. i never do anything wrong, i always tell them the truth.. yet they still doubt everything i say/do/think
i dont understand it at all. i may not be perfect but shit its not like i always lie to them or ever do anything that bad.
i fucking hate this godamnit. this is why i always question...
this is for
all you boys that think its cool to mess with girls and their feelings. if you think its cool to text them ONLY when you feel like hooking up, or talking to them, or when you feel like pretending that you give a shit.. ITS NOT.
its annoying and immature. girls get attached easy, and its all your fault. so if you dont want a girl getting attached to you then get the fuck away from her and dont...
honestly,
it STILL hurts.. and it probably will for a long time, but i need to do this.
its a good feeling
knowing that i’m done with the one person who has hurt me the most in the past few months. i’ve finally been able to accept that hes NOT worth it, and NEVER will be. so im giving up, not because i want to but because i have to.. this doesnt mean i dont care about him, i do.. i cant say i dont cause i’ll be lying but im done trying just because i know i can do alot better and i...
i feel
soooo much better about everything. and these past couple of days ive felt needed, i kinda like that feeling.. i like helping people :)
what a night.
09 is here already, i miss 08, but a new start is good.
i went party hopping, that was kinda fun. except one party didnt end up soo well, but ya know shit happens haha. ive had an amazing night, very eventful; i “gave” my cd away by accident. stayed out as late as i wanted to woohoo partied it up had a talk with a certain someone, which helped alot. didnt get my kiss but thats okay.. ...